One Goal down!

This last weigh in I was literally jumping for joy around the gym. Why? The first number on my weight no longer is a 2. I am 198! some may say that's splitting hairs but if I were 199.9 I would be just as excited. I haven't been under 200 lbs for four years and to finally put that number behind me feels liek a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. its amazing!

A reality check

Let me give a little history. Before I started working out and loosing weight one of the jokes I pulled quite often was, " well maybe I should join the biggest looser." one of the main reasons I said this was because every time my mom would rebuttal with something like, "don;t even say that. you aren't nearly big enough to be on that show." It was a way to make myself fee better.

Now we come to the present. About a week ago I was watching Biggest Loser and there was a woman on there and when she started she was only about five lbs heavier than I was when I first started. It really hit me. I was big enough. I was big enough to be on a show about the grossly obese people and that really forced me to look at myself much more realistically. I am down 35 lbs today from when I started and I'm so glad but I still have too look back and remind myself where I actually was

So Close

I got on the scale today expecting to maybe have lost a pound or so if I was lucky. Why you ask. Because this week I've been battling a cold and during my workouts haven't exactly been giving my all. For instance my average workout a day was about 25 minutes. Horrible I know. So now you understand my hesitation when weighing in today, well, that hesitation was for not. I lost 3 lbs last week and honestly I don't know how but I am stoked. I am now officially 201.2 and only 2 lbs away from being under 200!!!!! I'm so close...so close!

I can't believe I'm saying this!

I have never been much for working out and actually in the past I have done everything in my power to avoid it so this is strange for me to hear coming out of my own mouth...its hard to not work out! So on Friday I told you all I might have over done it and that was very true. Saturday morning I woke up with a cough and a really sore throat. Bad news. so I decided to take it easy over the weekend and see how I was feeling on Monday. well as far as working out I took it easy but in the sleep department I didn't take it easy at all. Friday I didn't get to bed till around 10 pm then Saturday with daylight savings and that whole mess I didn't get to bed till about 12:30 am and then was up by 7:00 am to bake monkey bread for my morning small group.

To say the least my body isn't happy with me at all. So yesterday I climbed stairs for 20 minutes for my workout and even though I worked up quite a sweat I didn't feel like I had done all that much. I guess that's what I get for running 2 1/2 miles. nothing quite feels like its enough of a workout now. Anyway I got up today and I felt like I'd been run over by a train. I was going to take today off from working out as well and then after about a half hour of being up and doing nothing I just couldn't not work out at all. I felt guilty for even thinking it. so I got out one of my workout videos and just finished that. I still feel like its way...WAY far behind the jogging that I had worked up to but at least its something. My goal this week...simply not gain. If I lose weight that would just be icing on the cake a this point.

R and R please

Let me start off by saying today was a really good day. I got home from work and did a little cleaning, walked to the post office and grocery store and baked a cake. I didn't have to rush through any of it because I have a three day weekend and I got to enjoy the absolutely beautiful weather that God provided for us today.

Even with today's wonderful normal no rush pace, I am realizing that this last week has got me thoroughly exhausted. This morning I felt it a little bit but after four miles of walking earlier and now getting back from Zumba I am just about ready to collapse where I sit. Its a good sort of ready to collapse though, I feel that I deserve it this time around. I know that sounds a bit...odd but its the truth. most days before when I would I feel tired it was simply because my body didn't know what else to do other than be tired. Today that willingness to surrender to sleep completely comes with a smile and a thought that this week I done good. I worked out every day, I ate well, and I managed to get quite a bit done.

That being said I think I am going to wash the dishes, take a nice long soak in the tub and then sleep for as long as my body will allow

3/4/2011

I did it! I jogged two consecutive miles without stopping. My legs feel like noodles and I feel like I might loose whatever remains from my dinner last night but it feels great!

One down...two tackled....three here I come!!!

I shake a little as I write this with a smile that might pull a few muscles in my face but I can't bring myself to stop. I just got home from my workout but today there was something amazing about it. I just finished a two mile jog! I still can hardly believe it. I have to confess I did there was a minute to minute and a half break between mile one and two but that doesn't color its amazingness in my eyes. Let me explain why this is such a big deal for me. The last time I was even capable of jogging for a two miles without collapsing and dry heaving till everything ached was back in Jr. High when I plaid basket ball and was way...way more active than any time in my adult life. Its been nine years people, since I could hold out for more than a time or two up and down the basket ball court. If I wasn't sweating out all the liquids in my body right now I might start crying. My next step, jogging that blasted two miles without stopping. I can't even believe I am thinking that is a possibility....its such a good day!